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“aya sayang tolong doakan mama ek. I’ve one major operation waiting for me later at 9.” Tu ayat yang biasa dia guna each time dia ade major surgery to run. Paling tak pun, simply cakap siap dengan tangan didepa-depa kat depan aya mengisyaratkan yang “mama dah nak pi, ade keje. Aya pray for me ye.”

“apa la kau. Tiap kali nak perform surgery mesti cakap kat anak engkau. Macam dia tau je apa ko nak buat.” Kawan pernah cakap macam tu kat dia and her answer, “ape la salahnya aku mintak dia tolong doakan. Bukannya aku tak doa skali, it’s just dia budak kecik yang tak de dosa. Aku pulak tua bangka penuh dosa. So by right, doa dia lagi ade chance la nak diterima compared to mine.”

Then perlahan dia sambung, “even she will never ever understand what in heaven’s name the meaning of ‘surgery’, ‘operation’ or wut not. At least aku share la sedikit sebanyak hidup aku kat dia, sharing is caring wut....”

“whoa... tak kan nak main kecik2 ati pulak?” Dia takat senyum tawar. “Nothing personal. Sesaje melancholic pepagi buta.jiwang semacam,” Senyap jap. Masing2 dok layan perasaan. And of course la yang terbayang kat kepala dia right now, adalah wajah aya, which is her friend’s one and only daughter.

Aya tak sesempurna manusia lain. Biasa la, no body is perfect. Tapi ketidak perfect kan aya bukan pasal physical tapi dia redha. “Tak pe la mama, jaga anak yatim kan dapat pahala besar, Nabi pun suka kat anak yatim.” Cakap kat mama bila memula mama tau dia buat decision nak jaga aya. Anak yatim anak yang mulia, dilindungi Allah setiap masa and that’s for sure. So bagusla, mane tau kalau dia jaga aya nanti dia pun boleh la gak nak tumpang2 sekaki dua rahmat yang Allah beri pada anak yatim bergelar Aisyah Natasya.

The Prophet (peace be upon him) is also reported to have said: "I, and the one who looks after an orphan, will be like this in Paradise," showing his middle and index fingers and separating them. (Sahih Bukhari, Vol. 7, Hadith No. 224)

“Worship none but Allah; treat with kindness your parents and kindred and orphans and those in need; speak fair to the people; be steadfast in prayer; and practice regular charity.” (Al-Qur'an 2:83)

Dia tau mama worried, mana tak nye. Time aya dia ambik jaga memula dulu, housemenship pun dia tak abih lagi. Dah la busy ada hati nak jaga anak orang. Mama bukan apa, tapi takut dia tak dapat jaga anak tu dengan baik.

“Therefore, treat not the orphan with harshness,” ad Dhuha (the morning hours/morning bright) 93:09

“Anak adalah rahmat so does a trial for his parent. Dun ever make her hurt, she is an orphan. Be good to her” 2543 kali mama ingatkan bila dia nak jugak keep that little aya with her.

And now almost 5 years dia jaga aya. Penat letih tak boleh nak describe, indescribable tapi rahmat Allah, aya walaupun serba kekurangan tak banyak buat problems kat dia. Makan senang, tido lagi senang. Jarang dengar dia menagis sampai memula mama dah naik bising suh examine kalau2 aya sakit because she was too quiet.

“…Allah will certainly aid those who aid his (cause); - for verily Allah is full of Strength, Exalted in Might, (able to enforce His Will).” al Hajj (the pilgrimage) 22:40

Dan keadaan aya yang tak banyak kerenah may be one of His way to show her yang tak ade penat mane pun nak deal dengan bebudak macam ni. Merely stigma and groundless prejudice.

“Good morning and assalamualaikum everyone. Hi, my name is amirah hanani, can call me hani.” Ingat lagi mase memula masuk support group and spent sum precious and memorable moment with all the mothers yang sama nasib dengan dia. Memula kekok gak tapi nasib baik sumer ade sifat peramah tamah yang tinggi so dengan mudah je dapat adapt.

“Besarkan anak ni tak susah, it’s just the perception that worried me. How others would treat my gal that freak me out. Biasa la, manusia cepat gelabah dengan extraordinary thing. And the ‘extraordinary thing’ in my situation is my own one and only gal.” Dia betulkan duduk sambil perati aya yang tengah kejar butterfly kat back yard tempat diorang kumpul reramai discuss the development and the future of these kids.

“and when they decided not to even give a shot, trying to understand this ‘extraordinary thing’ alamakatak la diorang akan ade misconception and from this so called- misconception easily leads to fear and the feeling of insecure. Takut la, cuak la then lelama jadi benci. From that, there came the stigma and prejudice,” luahnya. Uik,apsal tone sedih semacam ni? The sign of disappointment and distressed? May be...

Kecewa, mana tak nye. Tak kisah la kalo takat nak tengok aya lelama tapi bile muka dah berubah cuak siap tarik tangan anak dari making friends with aya, rase macam ringan je mulut nak sound guna amplifier supaya jaga la kelakuan, awak tu mak orang. Biar malu sikit. My aya won’t bring harm to your kid la. Cume currently je sejak dia join movement and involved in so many activities explained to the community supaya dapat accept budak macam aya, things are starting to change.

Dah tak jadi terkenal dah as if no weird looks or ridiculous gaze fall upon aya. Tak dengar whisperings here and there. Now people start to understand, begin to accept budak2 macam aya. Mula ade rase concern and sympathy dengan nasib kanak2 yang tak berdosa ni. Dia mengucap syukur menguntum senyum.

Malam tu time ambik aya dari rumah mama, aya dah tido. Lesu coz main dengan cousins yang lain. Plus dengan anak architect next door. Terjaga kejap bila dia cradled aya masuk dalam bilik. Tengok keadaan aya yang macam tu, kekadang dia terpikir sendiri. Macam mane la perasaan aya bila tengok diri sendirik lain dari yang lain, her emotion, her feeling. Takut ke, sedih ke?

Tak tau sebab tak rase. Tapi at least dapat contribute sum thing to make aya’s life better. Bukan main lepas tangan, dapat tau ade problem with the pregnancy skit, dah nak abort. Chicken! Tak berani langsung nak face the reality. Running away from the reality will not solve the problem. Dun play God as we never ever are. Not our business or framework nak determine sorang tu capable to run the life or not.

“Kill not your children for fear of want: We shall provide sustenance for them as well as for you. Verily the killing of them is a great sin.” Al Isra’ (the night journey, children of Israel) 17:31.

Tapi jadilah hamba Allah yang redha atas setiap trial and tribulation yang datang. Budak tu pun tak mintak lahir macam tu, bukannye sesaje offer diri nak lahir dalam serba kurang and suka suki nak susahkan orang. Again anak is a gift from the Lord Above. Appreciate him will hurt you not. Allah saje nak bagi pahala free via taking care of those babies. By aborting them indirectly shows that we reject the chance to attain His bless. Dah la amalan tak seberapa. Mesti baby tu rase sedih. Dah la kekurangan, awal2 lagi parents dah tak ade rase nak jaga.

“When the female (infant), buried alive, is questioned - For what crime she was killed;” at Takwir (the overthrowing) 81: 8-9

Dan dia tak pernah lupa yang aya or memana mentally retarded kids adalah bersih dari dosa, tinggi darjat di sisi Allah and always under His protection. Hati yang suci, yang tak pernah tercalit walau satu dosa pun sejak lahir kat dunia ni. Tak de dosa sebab tengok, cakap, dengar, or even pikir benda2 lagha.

Kekadang rase macam best pulak jaga aya. Yelah, when other parents keep on worrying anak memasing dengar seksa-seksi nye, clubbing la, partying all night, dengan illegal racing and over socializing among nowadays-boys and gals, dia boleh lepak relax lagi takat make sure aya is physically healthy, emotionally stable and once a while bawak pi usrah, daurah (camping), rihlah (picnic) islami. Bawak pi dengar tazkirah, ta’lim and tak yah la nak migraine2 pikir anak yang tak berapa nak jadi manusia yang berguna. Aya pun tak de la severe sangat, she just has got the mild one.

Dia selalu cakap kat aya, “aya sayang, aya anak yang istimewa. Doa aya selalu Allah terima, pray for mama will ye? Doa kat Allah satu hari nanti mama dapat jumpa aya kat syurga Allah. Jangan tinggal mama sensorang masuk neraka...” Moga ibadah membesarkan aya menjadi pembela dari dirinya disambar api neraka...

#since this block study on humanity and bioethics tetiba je orang jadi lebih berbioethics and humane. Kut la.
Just I would like to make it clear, say it out loud to the world that I’m strongly against abortion and baby euthanasia. Hey world, see things the way I do!